"I've decided that perhaps I'm bulimic and just keep forgetting to purge."

-- Paula Poundstone

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Our “rock bottom” moments


I have heard from tons of people already about my new adventure, publicly via this blog and Facebook, and through private messages. And one thing is already clear: We are all human with very human struggles and a deep desire to better ourselves.


We are also looking for a good kick in the pants to get us moving.

Take this comment:

“I could write a book about things my children have said to me (unintentionally) that SHOULD have been my rock bottom moments. Each time that happened, I promised myself I would start the next day. And then the next day. And then after the weekend … “

I can’t even count the moments that should have been THE final straw for me when it comes to weight loss. Many happened so long ago that I’ve been able to successfully repress the memories.

Others are pretty fresh:

The broken chair.

The seatbelt in the van not fitting.

Avoiding amusement parks because I know I won’t fit on the rides.

Having to ask for a seatbelt extender on a recent flight home.

Stuffing the seatbelt under my shirt on the next leg of the flight because I couldn’t bear to ask for a seatbelt extender again.

The 4-year-old who looked at me and said, “You’re fat!”

Each time, what should have been motivation turned to just another reason to hate myself, and in turn, to eat everything in sight.

Am I depressed because I’m fat, or fat because I’m depressed?

Who cares. I’m so sick of trying to figure that out. So sick of the excuses.

I saw this on a Facebook post today: “Imperfect action is better than perfect inaction.” -- Harry Truman

Isn’t that the truth? I’m gonna flub up. I promise you I won’t be perfect.

But I also promise that from now on, I’m gonna dust myself off and get right back up and keep going after every fall.

A good friend once told me, “There is no dress rehearsal for life. You don’t get any second chances to do this all again someday.”

What are we waiting for?

5 comments:

  1. Let's do it my friend. I've so needed a kick in my pants... all I have is excuses and no willpower.
    Honestly, I've felt like "Hell, everything in my life is screwed up, why should I have think about what I'm eating."
    But it's really not true. Honestly I have a great life ... thanks so much for being open Misty.

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  2. "You can do it Duffy Moon"

    - from the classic 1976 ABC after school special, "The Amazing Cosmic Awareness of Duffy Moon"

    http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0290131/

    - Matt Bach

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  3. Hey Misty I saw a church sign on Hwy 431 that sums up my misery....I will always struggle between the carrot and the chocolate....(read popcorn in there too!!) Bless your heart for putting yourself out there for all of us followers....you are awesome sweetie!

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  4. Hey girl. I'm with you. I'm on a similar run as well. Call me when you're ready to go on a tangent (BBQ chips have an unnatural bond with me...heh heh) and I'll come over and we'll walk the neighborhood instead. :)

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  5. You are already inspiring me. I am going to start cutting up the veggies at the beginning of the week and have them ready to go! Great idea.

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